I watch his back as he talks to Sif. What did I do? I shut the spellbook so that my face is visible again. I'm just being stupid. I walk away from everyone and set my shield and book down. Unsheething my sword, I study it carefully.
Suddenly, I hold it up, in a fighting position and stab it straight into the air. Twirling around, I stopped and stabbed again in the same place. I repeat. On the second twirl, I trip and the sword slips out of my hand. I groan and sit up, examining a small cut in my knee. you'll never be good enough to fight for them... I shake my head, ignoring the thought. you'll never be good enough at all
"I will stop if it will make you feel better but I need to go out there.." I straighten my outfit make sure I haven't smeared my maskcara and wipe away all traces of lipstick. Then straighten my hair unlock the door and step out closing it behind me. I see Acky attempting t swing the big sword and walk up to him, "Your forms all wrong."
"Yes, form the posture you adopt to hold the big sword.." I smile. Trying to help people isn't really my thing so I am sure I sound like a jerk. "May I hold your weapon for a minute?"
Something doesn't seem right I run back to the room opening the door, "Eris!?!" I see her sipping on the window sill and grab her hand, "What are you doing?"
What holds you betwixt panic and serenity? That is, if it's not among the many querulous quagmires unfit for elaboration. — soundofmind as Emiliano Achillinus