Don't Wanna Ruin Our Friendship

I really like you
But I dont wanna ruin our friendship
We've been side by side since first grade halls
Passing notes and writing on classroom walls
Back when life was simple, back when we were small
Never thought these feelings would happen at all
You were there for every high and every low
You know things about me nobody else knows
Now every time you smile, every time we talk
My heart starts racing every time we walk
And I don't know if I should let you know
Or keep pretending these feelings won't grow
Cause you're more than a memory
More than somebody standing next to me
From the playground swings to where we are tonight
You've been the constant in my life
And every time I almost say your name that way
I stop myself and throw the words away
Cause losing you's the one thing I can't do
Even though I think I'm falling for you
We grew up chasing summers through the rain
Laughing so hard we'd forget the pain
You know every secret that I've tried to hide
Every crack and scar I keep inside
Sometimes it feels like I'm the one who stays
When everyone else slowly drifts away
And every time you text me out of the blue
I can't help smiling just because it's you
Maybe I'm afraid of changing what we've made
Maybe that's why I've been so afraid
Cause you're more than a memory
More than somebody standing next to me
From the playground swings to where we are tonight
You've been the constant in my life
And every time I almost say your name that way
I stop myself and throw the words away
Cause losing you's the one thing I can't do
Even though I think I'm falling for you
I've seen the days when you've felt all alone
When the room got quiet and nobody called your phone
I've watched you carry things you never said out loud
Still somehow you found a way to make me proud
What if I tell you and everything changes?
What if our story starts breaking in places?
What if the safest thing I've ever known
Becomes something I can't call home?
But what if you've been hiding too?
What if you're scared like I am?
What if all this time the answer's been
Right where we stand?
Cause you're more than a memory
More than every moment we've been through together
From first grade dreams to growing older now
You've somehow made my world better
And every time I almost say your name that way
I stop myself and throw the words away
Cause losing you's the one thing I can't do
Even though I think I'm falling for you
I really like you
But I dont wanna ruin our friendship
We've been best friends since first grade
Through every year, every mistake, every change
Maybe someday I'll find the words to say
But if I never do, I'll still be grateful you stayed
Cause before I liked you
You were my best friend.